I don't get me .

It's really funny how somehow we can feel remorse
When there's no reason to .
It's funny how we get dissapointed with the outcomes of things
When we clearly knew it was happening .

Or is it just me??

Yesterday exam results were released online .
My whole class passed .
Everyone was petting each other on the back for a job well done .
I did not check .
Cause I wasn't eager to know .

Why would I ?
So they score with flying colours
Everyones a bona fide einstein .
But I could care less .
I'm probably the dumbest guy in that class .
In a course that probably isn't even right for me.
And it still wouldn't matter to me .

But at the end of the day .
When I saw the letters F.A.I.L on my screen .
I was
DISSAPOINTED??

BUt the question is how could I?
I saw this coming I knew I didn't study at all .
I didn't deserve to pass .
And yet I was DISSAPOINTED??

I don't understand me..
How could I feel sad and dissapointed over something like this .
Clearly there's something wrong with me .
When my best friend found out that he passed everything today .
I was happy .
When he jumped up and down showcasing his joy .
I was happy .
But
I was jealous .

And I have no idea why I would feel that way .
Isn't it funny how I could feel like that?

I didn't sow anything to reap
So why should I feel sad now that everyone is reaping?

LIFE......